I will admit this last week, week 5, has been the hardest for me since I have started with NutriSystem. I feel like such a failure and that is such a hard feeling to deal with. I have a new attitude as I get ready to start week 6 tomorrow. I am going to stick to the plan completely this week. I have no traveling coming up where I can not take my food with me and no reason that I can not stick to the diet for the next week.
I am normally really good about sticking to diets so it does not make sense to me that I have struggled so much this past week. I just do not know what is wrong with me that I was not able to control myself.
So I thought that I would share a little bit about the struggles that I am currently facing and what I am working on to be able to find the motivation that I temporarily lost.
First off I have been terrible about sticking to the diet as a whole. This is really odd for me because I normally am really good with diets and can easily stick to them. I have been dealing with a lot of stress so I am assuming that this stress is what has completely put me in my funk. I have been experiencing insane anxiety as a whole. I am not good when it comes to anxiety. I do not generally overeat and I have not been but I have wanted to eat all of the wrong foods. It has left me feeling worse about myself which has probably made me have even more anxiety.
Second of all I have not been able to get on track with my workouts. This disgusts me so I have made a plan to write more about my workouts and to do weekly check ins with my plans for the week. I am working hard and really want to be able to get into better shape.
So I am going to be doing a combination of different workouts so that I am not bored and working out without any equipment. I want to be an inspiration to others like myself who do not have the money for a gym membership and do not have the ability to have an abundance of equipment in their home.
Today I started an Ab Challenge, Push Up Challenge, Squat Challenge, and Arm Challenge for the next four weeks. I also have a number of additional workouts that I am hoping to fit into my schedule as well. Obviously there are only so many hours per day so if I only get these challenges in then I am still going to be proud of myself for what I have done. If I have extra time I am going to try to fit in one of these additional workouts as well.
One of the things that I love the most about NutriSystem is all of the support that you get. I have a wonderful counselor who is willing to talk with me when I feel down. My biggest issue is that I fail to reach out to her when I should.
Today I got emailed some questions and as I was thinking about them I thought that it would be appropriate to share them with you.
***Has your experience been as expected?
To be honest my experience has not been what I expected at all. First of all the food was actually better than I had expected it to be. Second of all for some unbeknownst reason I chose to cheat far more than I ever would have thought that I would. Seriously, I ate things that I was not even eating before because I felt like I could not have them. I am hoping that month 2 goes off with a bang and that I am able to break through this mental break that has been plaguing me this month.
***Has your energy level been improved?
Here is the kicker to why I get so frustrated with myself. When I stick to the program I feel amazing and so much better than I do when I do not stick to it. I think that one of the issues might have been that I did not like some of the meals so when I was out of the ones that I liked I chose to just not eat all of the meals that I didn’t. Now to be frank, I am a super picky eater so I would imagine that most people would like the things that I did not like.
***Are you sleeping better?
I did notice a huge improvement in my sleeping and sleep patterns when I was following the diet. When I have not been following it, I instantly went back to my poor sleep habits which I am sure caused me to want the things that I was not supposed to have and therefore it all played against itself.
***Is your outlook and attitude more positive because you are making positive changes in your life?
Well this one was happening. I could feel my moods improving each time that I looked in the mirror or stepped on the scale. However the problem for me has been that I was not able to stick to it like I liked with the traveling and then the anxiety issues. When I was dealing with all of the stress that was causing the anxiety I was having a lot of negative feelings and moods which rubbed off onto negative habits.
So all in all I know that NutriSystem is helping me to change my life in better ways. I am doing things that I never thought that I would do. However sometimes these changes are being met with opposition and my own worst enemy….MYSELF. I am hoping to start off month 2 with a bang tomorrow and will be posting soon about how the first few days are going.